Listen to What They Aren’t Saying

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“How are you,” I ask.  She looks up from wiping the sink, into the mirror to get a look at me. Then she leans her whole body sideways, finishes swiping the white enamel canoe shaped sink until the bowl is spotless.  She smiles and says she is fine. I linger because I sense something more.

Her round cheeks permanently flush, like someone wiped their finger stained with lipstick across them. Her skin is so pale it nearly matches the color of the thin white blouse she wears, making her blue eyes noticeable.

“It’s almost time to go home,” she says.

I turn around with dripping hands looking for the towels and empathize, “You must be counting the minutes then.”

She pulls herself up, moves over to the next sink in the trio and tells me she will be going to the hospital to visit her granddaughter when she gets off.

I hesitate, look in the mirror on the opposite wall and realize we’re the only ones in the bathroom at the Delta Club now. Just outside the door the room is full of travelers speaking different languages. Sitting with their luggage at white plastic tables, eating plates of carrots and salmon sandwiches shaped like rectangles. Somehow, it feels like I’ve entered a sacred portal.

I ask Jesus what He has in mind for these moments that I’m alone in the restroom with an airport employee.

“Oh, she must be quite sick,” I respond.

In less than a minute, I learn that her granddaughter is sixteen, her name is Courtney, and the doctors think she suffers from appendicitis. Except that there are signs of internal bleeding too. She can’t even hold water down.

I tell her I have a seventeen year old daughter and can imagine she must be worried sick. “That sounds serious,” I say.

She makes eye contact with me.

“I’ll pray for your Courtney,” I tell her. She looks down, fiddles with the wet paper towel she is using to clean and mumbles something quietly, then starts wiping the third sink, the one I just used.

“Thank you for praying,” she says sheepishly.

It only takes a minute to be vulnerable and lead someone to the presence of God.  I think about how many times I’ve asked someone that question, “How are you?”, and didn’t wait long enough to hear the answer. Or God speaking.

We’re all longing for someone to listen. Because very few of us are just fine.

So, how are you?

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Linking with Michelle, Laura, Jen and Heather.

 

How Vulnerability Opens the Gift of Relationship – Week #19

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Crossing my booted legs, I wait in the high back burgundy chair near the elevator; watch the glass doors slide open and shut. People scurry into the hotel lobby carrying luggage, shopping bags and umbrellas; arms wrapped around their waist holding in the warmth. I wonder if I will recognize their faces, if our conversation will be easy or awkward.

Emma found my blog through the Facebook ticker.  A mutual friend “liked” an update for a new post on my blog. Curious, she clicked over. It wasn’t until she “liked” my Writer page and I messaged her, that I discovered she and her best friend Jane were reading regularly. They co-author their own blog and actively participate in the Sabbath Society.

To say that their correspondence with me is a blessing would be a trite understatement.

On this day, Emma travelled three hours to meet up with Jane and make their way into London together on the tube. They both took the day off work to meet me. When they told me that, I put my hand on my chest, closed my eyes and willed the tears away. Humbled.

They teach me that vulnerability knows no boundaries in a screen or cultural differences. It opens the door to relationship. And that is why I blog, why I started the Sabbath Society.

As they step into the lobby, scarves wrapped around their necks, our eyes meet and we immediately embrace with smiles all around. We huddle around a tiny table in the corner of the hotel gathering space, pouring tea and catching up like old friends on holiday oblivious to time. And continue conversation with commas and few periods, over lunch in a French restaurant, walking side by side through crowded streets, swaying on the underground, and following the blue dot on Jane’s phone to my favorite bookstore when we corporately admit to being directionally challenged.

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Sometimes I lose my way. I get lost among crowded rooms of writers elbowing their way through social media and platform building and forget why God asked me to write.

Until someone tells me that my words are their main source of spiritual direction (outside of the Bible) and I want to fall to my knees on cobblestones with the pigeons in the fear of God. Who am I Lord?

He brought me together with two friends who live on the other side of the world to remind me that we are created to worship. Life is not about what we do for Him, but what He has done for us.

May you know today that your vulnerability isn’t wasted.  Know that you don’t need to fit in to the right place for God to find you. He wants to be your companion on the journey, not the greeter at the arrival gate.

Happy Sabbath Friends!

Let this be recorded for a generation to come, so that a people yet to be created may praise the Lord: that he looked down from his holy height; from heaven the Lord looked at the earth, to hear the groans of the prisoners, to set free those who were doomed to die, that they may declare in Zion the name of the Lord, and in Jerusalem his praise, when peoples gather together, and kingdoms, to worship the Lord. Psalm 102:18-22

 

Surrendering to Sabbath – Week 18

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H and I hold hands along the foot path, stopping every few feet to capture what is new to us. There is something beautiful about misted color and the wisdom of trees holding time in the hollows of their trunks. Vines twist upward, gnarl around her branches creating a holy haven for fowl in winter.

The unmanicured canopy of creation, it lays out like a pile of pixie sticks falling exquisitely random and untouched by human hands.

Canal boats drift steady, snoring sleepily between banks flush with green moss and upside down teacups hanging from stems like crooks of tiny folded umbrellas.

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We’ll remember our twenty-third wedding anniversary in England. The quiet Sabbath stroll we took down the lane, next to a meadow of dandelions. Where we realized we’ve been on a grand adventure with God at the helm since we said, “I do”.

And it’s been a good ride. I’m leaning in. And waiting.

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May you look back today and realize that God is and always has been with you, in the silence and grief, in the adrenaline rush of joy fulfilled, the promise of tomorrow, and in the hope of future dreams. He redeems the weeds and makes them beautiful.

Happy Sabbath Friends!

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